remember that my long life ambition is to open my own tuition centre, and "give back to society" . also to open my own kedai bubur bawah my tuition centre but tu solely for kemewahan duniawi. lol.
But i am about to do half of that long life ambition in matters of two weeks.
Im joining Projek Iqra's new project, Tuisyen Sayang. I'll be teaching english and amazingly sains. haha
Before i entered semester one of law degree, i made my mom promise me that when i got that law degree, she is not to stop me from doing whatever i wanted. Both mom and dad never agreed, and i was sent to shah alam anyways.
Thus making me very demotivated and hey my pointer is so bad mom wouldnt let dad knows. haha.
Sem one was harsh because i made them harsh. I secluded myself from the new people that joined law fac shah alam. I sat at the back of the class, preferring to be alone and be the last one to leave the class. i ate lunch alone or with my asasi friends but only with them. i was frustrated that some of my friends arent there in law fac with me and truthfully, My only source of hope was at night, where i go to NR and "study" or on lucky nights, hangs out with new friends from APB.
It was hard. i didnt know how to cope or who to turn to because mom and dad should not worry about me hating law. Abangs is getting married and busy working and i failed my favorite subjects which are english and mandarin so i had some major break downs. skipped several classes because im ashamed over the fact that i failed the subjects i love.
i must say this semester is the rarest sem that i talked to my brothers. hahah.
sem one was harsh , but i acknowledged the fact that it was caused by no one but myself. And i had fun going through the pains, i must admit that.
anyways, sem two is starting next week. We get to arrange our schedule ourselves this time, and ofcourse, saving myself from the same misery, and hoping for a new start, i changed class and moved into group b, where two of my close friends are in too! That totally boost my motivation hahah. And did i mention im moving into a proper apartment now? YES I AM ! hahah the idea of being able to make myself a proper comfort food totally pumped up my excitement for sem two. indirectly, i think im ready to face all the assignment and stress while knowing the fact that whenever im down, i can always go to the kitchen and simply buat bubur or sup ayam anytime i want! haha
my pointer for sem one also, amazingly kicked my gear into action. apparently i hated that number so bad and very determined to change it next sem. hahah InsyaAllah.
and now, i signed up to Tuisyen Sayang, and while i was scared about blending in, the team there is so welcoming. i was ready to hop on a bus, but no, all of them started to offer their cars and "jomlah carpool!"
can you feel the love radiating from the screen right now? hahahah i havent officially meet them yet, but i will this saturday, insyaAllah.
the fact that tuisyen sayang is very similar to what i had in mind since spm is amazing. i am not gonna lie, i cried when i was emailed by one of the founders. Tuisyen Sayang may not be my own tuition centre, but i am going to share what i know, with the kids there. and what more can i ask? half of my dreams are coming into reality next week and i get to do it every week! honestly how amazing is that?
im also going back to my high school hobby. ive registered photography as a subject for next sem, and i am looking forward for that. i miss using my dslr. i miss taking moments :)
sem dua is going to be awesome. mentally, i am ready to face my law subjects to avenge my pointer. I am looking forward to share my knowledge with adik adik at tuisyen sayang, I already have one subject that im sure i'll love for sem two and i'll get to be with my close friends too so YEAH IM PUMPED UP !
hahah.
i am trying to be more matured now that im actually nineteen. And i dont think sitting around moaning about law school is gonna help me build my own tuition centre and it certainly aint helping the kids at tuisyen sayang if i end up failing more subjects kan? :)
anyways enough ranting. this is soooooo long already. hahahaha.
thank you for reading sampai habis :D
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