storiesss~ tak mau lah. kekeke,

“do you know that I cried because of you?”  she said through the phone. “ that day when you came to visit. The tears that fell, they were for you.”

a new story. but i dont think i will publish it here. its too real. the story is too real. but i cried writing it. pain and unbearable agony. thinking back, on that particular day, i was quite suprise to realize that the tears that fell on that day was unstoppable. it keep on flowing even as i was bidding goodbye to sham. quite shocking to see the red and puffiness too. 

:)

going back home tomorrow so im not sleeping tonight. going to stay up till 6am pack my stuff, wake ibu up, and vroom vroom~ home here i comeee~ 

i was late today. to school. first time in 2012. lambat! hee~ 

but i dont give a fcuk. its fucking school. i dont give a shit anymore. 

its quite painful really. 

when you're alone.  the pain never goes away. 

so its hard.once you get the taste of perfection and content, its hard to face emptiness each day.

im trying so hard to be okay but its hard. really. and i dont know what elso can i do. i just want to be me again. but i cant find it anymore. i cant find me. i searched high and low for her but shes gone. i dont know. the new mee is too weak.  i dont know what to do. 

this fucking tears really have got to stop! gah!