stay strong and try again! :D

reading my previous post...
i have this feeling..i felt like i'm scared of myself. its like the person who wrote that post wasnt me.
but it is. i guess hatred do that to people.
hmm.

so, this month so many things happened. i mean, bad and sad things.
last monday i went to school with eyes swollen.
well, i dont know really. people asked, i just shrugged. i didnt notice anything really. all i felt was pure pain. :)
amazingly, even my head prefect asked. LOL. i was like busy helping my juniors to susun the chairs, then she came to me and asked.:  "qila,whats wrong with your eyes?" i was likee..."UHH...tak cukup tidur kot" hahahahaXD
well, it wasnt a lie. i slept late okayy~
and then the epic one was when my another senior, stared at me...stared in a good way though. she was likee.."oh em gee..i really like your eyes..macam mata cinaa~"
ANOTHER EPIC LOL.

well, my juniors asked the same ques but my answer were the same. "tak cukup tidur kot."
:p none of them believed it though. but ohh well. :D

emm.. week three and that bull shit feeling still lingers.
crappy heart. well, i guess it will take some more time. you know what they say. a broken heart cant be fixed within days or weeks. it takes time.
:)

emm...to my chinta hati:p
over here i'm filled with sadness too. i cant imagine how you felt but i know it hurts. please stay strong.
like tumblr always says, KEEP CALM AND TRY AGAIN.
thank you for asking me about my probs though you already have your own.it makes me love you more.
i miss you. i wish you were here that night. i was a mess. but thank you. hope we both will have a better life from now on. promish to support each other? saranghae unnie~cheongmal saranghae.
tell mr arms that i said hi~~ :P

school was okay. i miss my friends. i need to make new ones. i need to mingle around. i'm getting bored with the girls. i miss my old friends. ma, izz, harith, aiman, hajral, haish..kenapa lah korang ni pergi jejauh. grr.

emm... to my babyboo. you keep asking sayang saya tak? i was wondering. what do you really want me to say? are you waiting for 'tak.'?
you said you've learned to hug peeps, yet why when i came and try to give you a hug, you cringe away?
and yes, i'm not gonna hug anyone else now.
just shikin, may class mates and puan bibi. i wont touch anyone from your class anymore.
dont worry.

tu jeh. mata dah sakit. otak still pening.
try dengar lagu 2ne1-stay together. nicee~ :D


thanks for reading guys.
and soo sorry bout that ugly post. i was hurt and lonely.
sorry bout the awful choice of words. my bad. :/