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its 2011. i've made a new resolution. scratch that. i've made TONS of resolutions! but one of them is i must took every chance i had and NEVER REGRET IT.

well, on the 23rd january, i did that. i made up  my mind and there a perfect chance to carried it out. so i did. but then now..after reading her words. it made me realised that maybe what i did was wrong.

i dunno. i'm drop dead tired. tired of everything. i was hoping that i wont see kak yani anymore but she just have to drop by the school and fcuking distract me. it doesnt help when everyone shout my name everytime thew saw her.

when i delete you both. its because of im tired. people was whispering and im tired of it. seeing you online and crap somehow made hope manage to slip in my heart. and i was tired of that too.

you especially. you did nothing but ignore me. for the past 3 years, i've wasted half of my life for you. you gave me nothing back. not a simple hello or reply my massages. that was when you were still in school...now that you're out, dont you think that you'll forget bout me more? yeah......do think about that.
tell that to your sister too.

its not just about her PERASAAN. WHAT ABOUT MINE?!

you think you can benci me and stuff? well, you wanna know what, I FUCKING HATE YOU MORE! YOUR SISTER SAID I WAS A SELFISH PERSON? TELL HER THAT SHE WAS NOTHING BUT OBNOXIOUS KID. THINKING THAT THE WHOLE WORLD CARED BOUT HER WHEN NOBODY OUTSIDE YOUR FAMILY DOES! STICK THAT TO HER FACE PLEASE.

this entry started out very depressed but end up filled with anger. and hell yes, it does feel good. writing always made me feel better. and today was no exception. you know what? that regret is almost gone now that i've let it all out.

to my family...if any of you are reading this...dont mind the language please. yeah, i've learned to curse but i dont use it regularly. its hard to ignore when i had to hear such words everyday at school 5 days a week, from 645am till 4pm.  sorry yeah. :)

to my loyal readers, thank you soo much for reading. and still sticking here. i havent updating my blog for quite some time now and i'm truly sorry. being a f4 student isnt as easy as it seems. hehe....i'll update soon. take care guys. luve ya loads. :DDD