listen to me...

I've set my target. i guess abang ipin was right after all. i'm trying to see things too far. my mind wasn't ready to set things permanently, so yeah I've set my mind on what i want and i'm making it official here in my blog. cause i know some of my family members read here to know how am i doing. hee...~
well, first of all....

• i'm taking pure science and thats final.- I know things are gonna be super duper hard when i enroll myself as a science student but i shall try my best to cope with things. i'm also aware that i tend to be lazy and sometimes i would give up easily but i need you guys, *my friends and family,* to push me from behind. dont place too much pressure on me but just lightly give me guidance and motivation is all i ask. :)

• dont ask what is my ambition. - cause i wont give you the answer you wanted and expect to hear. i just learned that the word ambition is actually very subtle for me. to everyone i suppose. to me, ambition is not just a empty line/place to fill in when i grow up and ready to carry certain burden. so if you are expecting i'll answer your question with things like doctor, lawyer or a journalist even sorry to burst your bubble but i wont. so dont get your hopes up high. instead, i will simply answer your question with a simple explanation which i'm certain every teenager have given you. which is. "my ambition for now is just to score every test i'll face till the end of SPM." thats all. (PS: score means A++++)

• i wont join or enroll in any technical school. - the reason? hee..since most of my family (minus my parents and bro) encourage me to join technic. i feel very sorry to say this but yeah. here goes nothing. they wanted me to join technical school cause to them they all saw me as a very creative person. and of course slightly boyish. but the thing is i'm not interested in that thing at all. i mean, it certainly sound very interesting when you heard the word asrama and kejuruteraan struktur dan bahan ect but after a deep thinking, i dont think my heart is there you know. plus, the word creative for me only fall on my passion for writing. i'm only creative when it come to words. you can give a one subject and i can almost instantly create an oneshot in marely 5minutes. but if you give me view or a cupboard and ask me to design the pattern on it or ask me to draw what i saw from that view it will took me almost the whole day or more! and to make the matter worse, the end product will be UGLY! i've done it before so yeah. i know what i'm talking about.  i hadn't  have the chance to look on the sample questions of kejuruteraan awam for SPM but i can guarantee you that i wont like it a bit. however, i've also looked/ googled on the soalan contoh for SPM like bio, chemistry ect.. i must admit that its certainly hard but as a optimistic person, i;m sure i can learn it answer the question easily when i need to.  besides, i have a confession. i've fallen in love with biology. i cant say the same with physics and chemistry though but no worries. i shall try my best. so once again mak long and pakngah and abg yid...i'm not taking technical and i'll stick to pure science. it is after all easier said then done remember? *wink wink.*  i hope you guys understand and can accept my decision. :) 

• finally, a little bit of hope and my wish. - i am aware that if i become a science student, i would have to spend most on my time on books which means i wont have the unlimited access to SOOMPI.COM FANFICTION.COM or even BIGBANGUPDATES.COM anymore.  i'm not saying i'm ready to let go and forget all about my community there but i am ready to leave that sites for some certain amount of time and comeback only few times a week. i just hope that you guys could cut me some slack. i'm not asking for much. just once or twice a week would be enough. do let me continue my passion for my writing as well as letting me feed my imagination after one week of unstoppable war with all that numbers and scientific names.;)  like i said before, writing is my way of release my stress and problems but of course, not all of you know that. but that is another whole problem for me to break to their faces so you peeps who're reading this doesnt have to worry. you guys after all, know all of my secrets here right? hee~

well, thats all i have to say for now.  if theres anyone out there who is one of my family members..i hope you understand my actions and i also hope that my alasan up there is good enough for you. so i gotta go now. i need to tell the same thing to my parents and bro so yeah...BYE~

thanks for reading and lurve you guys. LOADS! HAHA... take care yeahh..:)